Me : I don't want salary. Salary is not the reason why I am quitting.
MD : We could give you a permanent position in US
Me : No, I have had enough of US. I do not want to go to US again."
What better name to call me than the fourth idiot.I dint want to be the hero who threw away the golden goose nor did I want to show off in front of anyone. Yet something made me reject both the offers put forward to me by the MD. Tonight could be a disaster in my life or could bring about a paradigm change. I sincerely hope it turns out to be the latter.
I don't mind being one among the millions of Indians who dint make it big in the corporate, who quit the mad race even before it started, who never dreamt of carving a career in the US. For many I am the wannabe hero who threw away golden offers which people just dream of in the beginning of their career. But hero in front of whom? Does anyone really bother what happens in my life? Does it matter to anyone whether I go to US or I earn a 6 digit salary?
An emphatic "No" is what prompts me to make me realize with a sinking heart that its a lonely world. Its said that emotions and relations are what sets apart humans from other forms of life. Feel like seeking a helping hand but maybe the ego deep within me forces a smile on my face. Its that farce smile that looks like boldness and smartness to others.
Its always a constant clash between what you want, what is expected from you and what you really can do!! These 3 factors are in a constant battle with each other and many a times the result is all 3 fail. I wanted to be something, circumstances forced me to take up something else and in the end I failed to do that something else.
The end result of all......The Fourth Idiot!!!!!
4 comments:
this is an amazing post... :) every1 running behind makin life better thinking of wat da world will think... your decision wat perfect of making life in ur terms... but must say... one thing u really missed out on... da reason to leave corporate... :) b one among da few who'll be able to stand up on ur perfect decision! ...
Regards n good luck! :)
nice post man.I think when we humans grow up and become so called "adults" our parents and society expect a lot from us.Or you can say they expect you to behave in a certain way.Even though you think that you have the absolute freedom in most of the cases you are bounded by many rules.At the end,when you are old a big question mark arises about the difference in what you did and what you wanted to do.But I think you were able to break the rules(Its not that bad as the society may say) and live your life in your own way.But still as an ordinary human being you may not be able to stand up against society always.The slight fear of failure will be there always.So dont worry about your decisions.and keep smiling always...:) you may unknowingly bringing up confidence in others.
@deepika: Reasons for leaving are many. No point going into those here:)Thanks for your wishes...
@vipin : Societal and family commitments does put us into a limited space.That has been prevalent for centuries,but mind you many a times it is sensible to be in the space.All your support systems are in that limited space.
The moment you break free and wander in the empty void you are cut off from those support systems literally and sense of fear grips you.
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